Been awhile, been stressed, been just off.....

   Yeah its official I hate the holidays! Bah Humbug, whatever, blah blah blah......This year I acctually have a good reason. Thia also goes right along with the reason I hadnt updated this in forever.

    Lets go back about a month and a half, to where my Grandma Margie fell and broke her hip. This is a stressful thing on a normal 78yr old woman, especially one with Parkinsons. So things were dicey for a while there. I mean scary.....and anyone who knows me knows I am closer to Margie and Bill than anyone in the Universe aside from my kids. These are the people who have always been there, loved me and been the parents I needed. As you can guess there was a little over a month that Rhiannon and I both were on egg shells and not doing to great. NONE of this was made better by the fact my Father and Mother decided to call the police and try to claim that Grandpa was abusing grandma. Fortunatly the chief of police put that idea to reast as soon as he got wind of it but not before the young female officer who answered the call had spread the rumor all over town.(she has since abruptly left the PD, funny huh) So OF COURSE I had to hear all about how the police had told my other grandparents how insane my grandfather was being. Then since THAT ploy didnt work my parents called adult protective services. Anyone in their right mind KNOWS Bill worships the ground Margie walks on.
   My theory is they think Margie and Bill inherited a bunch of money when CT, Margies Father passed away about 10 years ago. Little do they realize he paid for round the clock in home care for both he and his wife up til they died and that ate up all the money. In researching around we found out that after loosing a court case where it appears they were trying to defraud workmans comp my parents are likely drowning in a sea of legal bills, which is pressumably why the sudden suppossed interest in Margies well being as oppossed to the outright loathing and hate expressed through my childhood. And people seriously wonder why I have nothing to do with these people???  All of this is on top of the fact my younger sister, who is living in the UK, now has cancer and apparently not doing well. I guess I should be thankful I had them go over me with a fine tooth comb while we had tri-care. I can live with the ulcer and bad back, the whole cancer before 40 thing is scary stuff.
   All of this, plus the usual money, the looming chances of deployment, kids, winter weather, and I am just a fucking ray of sunshine. And yes this is a rant but I am frankly tired of living in the midwest. I miss culture, I miss civilization, I want to be able to take my children to a museum that doesnt center around freaking cowboys or the old west......I miss the real world. Sadly short of hitting the powerball I dont see that changing...lol.
   Needless To say I am NOT in the christmas spirit. I havent even set up the tree and am frankly dreading the task. No christmas spirit this year, really just faking it for the kids....